Hey Kim,fill me in whats up in your life?

I just got back from the Alex Grey art intensive as well as all good festival. For some reason it felt very empty even though everyone around me was saying how inspiring and incredible it was to work with alex. I only said 3 or 4 words to him the entire time there.( On the last day i told him thanks... ) that is about it. It was really overwhelming for me, I took a mushroom trip there and it revealed a lot. It was an uncomfortable experience like the one at Fisher Towers but I tried to take all the positive that I could. I am at a cross roads right now, and I need to make a desision about my work. I am partial to the tattooing and even though I just landed the job at the parlor I am considering leaving it and doing something to make my self happy. Its up in the air.


I am really happy for you Kim, I hope that you are having the time of your life. Please get back to me when you can, I want to know what you are experiencing. I love you. I can just imagine the bronze tan that you must have.

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I am sorry to hear about the emptiness of your Alex Grey experience. I know how important that was to you. Some times the anticipation is greater then the experience itself. Funny how that works out, ay.

If you leave the parlor, what other options are you considering? "Doing something to make yourself happier", thats so great to hear you say... you have seemed to take what you can get the past several years not really driven to improve your lifestyle, now your grabbing the bull by them big ass horns. It will feel so much better when you live for happiness, not finance and pretty housing.
It seems like you have also found a lovely lady, which I am sure is an inspiration to your understanding of happiness.

I have been going out with friends, men have been interested, but Im not sure if its my strong love and attachments for you or my personal need to be independent and work on self love and understanding that keeps me at a long distance from these men. Even the artist who has supplied me with materials, I pushed him away; I just want to be free. I need to be free.

Today has been a little slow for me. I stayed up late last night, sorting my thoughts of where things stand between us. It has continued spewing in through today, which has drained a lot of my energy and inspired a creative masterpiece. I want you to be happy Peter. I hope that our communication improves now that our relationship will no longer be sexually based. I'm gunna miss the sex though, you are my favorite.

I wrote you a letter yesterday before I read your message (which I have responded to as well). I sent the letter off earlier today, the return address is where you can write back if you care to. Its actually kinda funny; the address. Anyway, the letter will give you more of an idea of what I've been up to. Did you get my last letter?

Today My roomate was on his way to an inteview and he got attacked by a dog. The damn thing nearly took his hand off and he had to go to the hospital. Fucked man...
now his bar tending interview will have to be postponed until he heals up some.
My other roomate, Mattayo just called and got his painting job sorted out, but just found out his other roomate, whose room im sleeping in, has just been diagnosed with throat cancer. His doctors want him to stay in the states for a little while and sort things out. Its really sad, he was in the middle of starting up a tourist package program, I pray for his health.
well, tonight I plan on getting obliterated and Im sure the boys will have no complaints. Things are not well at the moment, and drowning it all in alcohol sounds like a dandy fucking idea.

As for the bronzing tan.. haa.
My leg has the wierdest tan cause of the knee brace I wear. I don't sit out under the sun, so I have many tan lines, but bronze or no bronze, Im still beautiful.

I love you Peter. I miss you more then ever. The distance has seemed to grow with knowledge.

The universe provides an excellent source of love, time to tap into it.

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Damn even though I found someone here, it still feels uneasy when you say you gonna let the universe tap you. I'm very much attracted to you but It is only fair that you get to share time with someone else, weather I like it or not.
I'm saddened to hear that you are drowning your self in alcohol as a means of a crutch for your problem.


I did not get your first letter, When did you send it out, it must come soon.

We both got thinking to do, keep in touch with me. If you need money for a phone card, let me know I want to speak with you. (PLEASE DONT BE SHY TO ASK, you know I will provide all I can)

Find peace in your heart Kim, you may find it at the bottom of the bottle but that is only temporary. We'll see eachother again Love you

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Haha, I didnt even drink last night. I enjoyed a soccer game in the middle of town. I got really into the game. Mucho Gusto.

I am not interested in men at the moment, or women. I want to be single, find out who i am before trying to figure someone else out.Find love in everything I do. I care not attach myself to a person to seek it within them. I need to be free, do what i want. THis is my time, as selfish as it may sound, I need it.

I am genuinly happy for you Peter. I think you will find the sense of security you seek in this woman. At least thats what it sounds like, considering your already dating.

I actually met a man that has a magic jack. I can call you for free, I just dont have your number.

Life is bueno Peter. Even though you have found another woman, it can't stop me from loving you, maybe only on a physical level.
THe facebook messages are more complete with my feelings. I am glad that I felt the sorrow, it gave me more of an understanding of how you felt when I was with other men. THe only difference is I would pick you over them any day... they were just boys.
I am still unsure about your relationship with this woman. I prefer to speak with you over the phone. Please, PLEASE leave your number

Much love Peter. Much love.

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